Hash just takes it all away from you. I know its a fairly basic, irrelevant drug, but i still love it.

Allthough im starting to fear the addiction coming back to me. I dont want to get back to the old routine of getting wasted every lunchtime at school. It drain the will, does hash. Makes you rather float through existance than take part in the mundanity of lessons, exams, work. Makes everything irrelevant.

And a big fuck you to anyone who says it isnt addictive. Before Wednesday night (thats Valentines night) i hadnt smoked hash in two years. Now iv been totally fucked for three days running, and im considering going to the basement right now and rolling myself a lonely one-skinner. Sigh.

The thing that really gets me is how young they all are. Mike, for example. Screwing Lorna then coming to the basement to roll me a joint, and he's only 14. I know, i know, there are much more unpleasant exampls of children growing up fast than that, but its still worrying.

Presumably it is the school system that is too blame - schools are made for thick people. Smart people have two choices - get it all over and done with and finish their Highers or A-levels by the time they are 14, or get totally fucking wasted everyday of their school career. And it is sooooo much easyer to choose the latter.

But wait - whats that i hear you say? You dont know why intelligent people cant just do the same as other people? Well, simply because they get bored waiting for the simpletons to catch up with them. And thats where hash comes in - it slows them down to the level of the average schoolkid.